The lines on my face don’t bother me nearly as much as the lines on my soul. Sometimes insomnia plagues me and I often lie awake in dawns early light asking God far too many questions yet not pausing long enough for answers. Waiting is a difficult burden to bear.
It seems it is not within our human nature to cultivate a healthy relationship with waiting. No matter how hard we try, we still seem to worry, ponder, and ruminate far too often than we should on situations and circumstances of life that we can not control. We live in an instant gratification culture that is conditioned to receiving what we desire in a matter of moments. Packages still show up on our doorsteps in an ice storm, groceries get delivered to our car after we click a few buttons, and telemarketers call every week offering us internet that is faster than the speed we had the week before. We don’t seem to struggle with much in our first-world culture. Though there always seems to be an exception to every rule of life: we struggle with the ability to let go and let God… be God.
Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.
We are well aware that the scriptures encourage us to wait. Everyone seemed to wait for everything and anything that was of value to their character development and purpose. As leaders, more often than not the answers and guidance we wait for is not just for us but for the body of Christ that we serve. But know this truth: the pressure and war between our flesh and spirit to fulfill the ache that dwells within our soul is a fight worth fighting… and fighting well.
In the Hebrew language, the word wait is translated a qavah and it means to wait, hope for, look, and expect.
Perhaps if we changed the very words we speak, we will create a new and powerful weapon with our mouths and lead with the language of our heart. Instead of using the word wait, we can use the word hope. Or look. Expect.
I am hoping on the Lord. I am looking to the Lord. I am expecting of the Lord.
We may not wait so well in our human nature, but our spirit knows no bounds when we hope, look, and expect that our King will lead us through the wilderness to witness the peak of the mountain top we are seeking.