“Everything is wrong with this place. My computer is too slow and even the air conditioning is not working.”
Those words whizzed through the air like scud missals! I knew they were intended to shock and intimidate me; but in that emotional moment I knew I was simply the target for the release of someone’s frustration and unresolved anger. My gut reaction was to retaliate and fire words of defense. But through a series of past, painful experiences I learned that being a Godly leader and woman of influence meant learning to “park my ego at the door.”
For over thirty years I was the only woman in the boardroom. For ten of those years I ran a large law firm and chaired the monthly boardroom meetings. For over twenty years I was a Controller for two car dealership franchises and again, the only woman in the weekly boardroom meetings. It was obvious that when I allowed my selfish, pleasure-seeking ego (pride) to dominate the agenda and conversations, an ugly tension always permeated the room. I am a strong leader and I like to win, but God showed me a different way.
I like to get things done. Goals, agendas and deadlines need to be followed and adhered to. Confrontations and disagreements are a part of life. If I allow my brittle, flimsy and selfish ego to rule my days, and dominate conversation, I will miss out on the pleasure of achieving the kind of accomplishments that God designed specifically for me.
The kind that brings me ultimate fulfillment and joy. But I must always remember that my greatest goal is to pour God’s love and grace onto everyone I meet. That means taking a deep breath, parking my ego at the door, and remembering that we are all God’s creatures desperately trying to find our value and place in this world.